Today was IDK due to how it begun and ended. When I went in to work my boss was late and I was immediately was busy when things calmed down a bit a homeless dude whos ben a serious problem lately came by and started talking shit to a coworker. when I heard yelling I rushed outside pocket knife in hand to back them up. while most people view this as stressful I found it exhilarating, I was in my element ready to backup a friend. the dude ran and was hiding out at the building next door but duty calls so after saying goodbye to my coworker and seeing them off I went back to my responsibilities. got off earlier because my work is reduced on Sundays though and now have 2 days off this week.
I never really thought about the future and as days pass I find myself looking back and thinking the same question over and over 'How many times did I truly smile?' It strikes me as odd that even though I'm stressed by bills and work and have no social life due to work and my age I seem to enjoy this more. maybe it's because I'm free to be in peace, no need to worry about waking mom up after a night of sneaking out or the feeling of being judged in a place i call home, I do miss some things though. I used to do short stories as a hobby and now i no longer do that, I don't enjoy T.V Like I used to. It's all in the past now though so while I plan for the future I better focus on the moment and make some Dinnfest.
Got out of work super late and decided bike around town for a bit It's amazing seeing how quiet and desolate a place can be at certain hours. was going down a hill with my hands In the air jamming out to my playlist and remembered why i did this in LA. It may not be the hustle and Bustle of the city and no taqueros are open around this time but being able to let loose with little worry of a car felt amazing forget weed this is what I search for to relax it just sucks that I'm 19 so I cant grab a beer and enjoy it more but well I have whiskey at home.